Where do you turn when your best friend dies? To the one person who understands…his girlfriend.

I step aside and close the closet door, but manage to knock over a decorative box and spill some photos. When I pick them up and start putting them away, the top one catches my attention. It’s a photo of Kade and Sutton kissing at a park. I think I took the picture. I remember loving how cute they were together. The perfect couple.

My stomach clenches. Now, after all Sutton and I have been through together since Kade’s death, seeing her kiss someone else—even Kade, when they were together, when he was alive—feels like a punch to the throat.

I glance over at everyone else. Their attention is still on Sutton and Kade’s parents. I flip through some more pictures. They’re all romantic photos of Kade and Sutton. A few I took, but most are selfies.

My stomach is knotted so tight I can barely breathe.

I’m a horrible person. I shouldn’t feel this way. But I do.

Kade’s parents make their way for the door. I put the photos back and close the closet door, then jump up and say goodbye, trying to ignore my irrational jealousy. I would far rather have Kade back with him and Sutton together than have my current reality.

But that doesn’t change how I feel about Sutton. Kade’s not here, and I’m falling more in love with her with each passing day.

That’s my reality, no matter how much of a selfish jerk that makes me.

I take a deep breath and force myself to shove the photos from my mind, but the images are burned into my memory. All I can see is the two of them kissing.

I’m jealous of my dead best friend. That’s some kind of seriously messed up thinking.

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What could be worse than your boyfriend dying in your arms?

The night of their graduation, a car wreck takes Kade’s life. Sutton’s world is shattered. But then everything spirals out of control when, at his funeral, she discovers she’s pregnant.

She turns to the one person who understands her devastation—Anchor, Kade’s best friend. He pushes past his own anguish to help Sutton navigate her impossible decisions. Feelings and attraction intensify, but so does guilt. Despite the tangled emotions, they manage to fill the Kade-sized hole in each other’s hearts.

Then life hits them with another devastating blow. Anchor and Sutton grew close through tragedy, but this time it could be what ends them… unless they can muster the strength to fight for what they’ve built.

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